Hold On I took a step towards the edge of what's real Hoping to find some truth A simple key to what is really there Something that could help me through When she left there was no time to think Everything happened too fast A rush of wind that knocked us off our feet Never thought that it wouldn't last I was praying every chance I had Begging to be taken instead But I ran into a silent brick wall Ya I was praying hard to be dead And every time that I would look at her My heart would fill with fear and dread I couldn't take it couldn't understand How could the world be that bad So hold on love her every day Let her know make sure you say Just how much she means to you And make sure she knows it's the truth Hold her just tell how it is Give her all the love you can give Tell her your love will last Cause suddenly it can pass I know she really knew that I'd love her forever It wouldn't be better But with such a change in the world all around us I start to wonder Did I give enough love Did I show enough love Did she know how much I cared Hold on love her every day Let her know make sure you say Just how much she means to you And make sure she knows it's the truth Hold her just tell how it is Give her all the love you can give Tell her your love will last Cause suddenly it can pass She takes my hand but something's not quite right I follow her anyway I feel I'm floating there's a funny light But I'm happy and she's just the same So I turn to her and try to say I love you but there is no sound Then I wake up knowing it's a dream Heavy sadness creeps in all around Hold on love her every day Let her know make sure you say Just how much she means to you And make sure she knows it's the truth Hold her just tell how it is Give her all the love you can give Tell her your love will last Cause suddenly it can pass Hold on love her every day Let her know make sure you say Just how much she means to you And make sure she knows it's the truth Hold her just tell how it is Give her all the love you can give Tell her your love will last Cause suddenly it can pass © 2019 James Richard Flewelling Words & Music by R. Flewelling Recorded & Produced by R. Flewelling

Each Passing Year She noticed trees she loved to tease Flowers were her gift To be alive was a prize And she could not resist Enjoying every thing around Good or bad she wasn't proud Just happy to be here or anywhere She always took the time to stop To see what those around could not The color of the sky or something new And if she was late she'd contemplate Then put it down to being fate Then look around for something she could do She planted seeds and now there's trees In places where they wouldn't grow She'd bring a barren field back to life And she could make the flowers bloom Anywhere that she would choose She beautified my world and made it right She always had a smile on tap You didn't have to wait too long She'd light up a room and make it glow And when she laughed it make me laugh And if she cried it went right through My heart would ache and long to hold her close With each passing year we would both realize Love just got better grew deeper inside If anything came that might tear it apart We'd stand together and fight from the heart If we made mistakes we would learn to forgive Knowing that love had the power to win Away from each other there'd always be pain So I could never wait to be home again She always held her head up high No matter what was thrown her way She'd put everyone before herself She'd always fight for what was right And drown the shadows with her light No matter what the cost she'd always help Then suddenly there's something wrong That puts her on a different path But she still stands up very proud and tall And as her world comes crashing down My heart is broke without a sound Our world's are torn apart and she is gone With each passing year we would both realize Love just got better grew deeper inside If anything came that might tear it apart We'd stand together and fight from the heart If we made mistakes we would learn to forgive Knowing that love had the power to win And now that she's gone there is nothing but rain An' it just don't feel right going home again With each passing year we would both realize Love just got better grew deeper inside If anything came that might tear it apart We'd stand together and fight from the heart If we made mistakes we would learn to forgive Knowing that love had the power to win And now that she's gone there is nothing but rain An' it just don't feel right going home again.... No it doesn't feel right going home again And I just never want to go home again No I just don't want to go home again I just don't want to go home again I don't want to be alone no more I just don't want to go home again I just cannot go home again © 2019 James Richard Flewelling

Carry On I hear a voice calling my name I spin around am I going insane Cause there's no one but me I feel all alone in this place Then I realize that I'm very lost I don't recognize one single spot Though I've been around here I've lived around here all my life Someone tell me what's going on I'm so damned confused I used to be strong But now I seem blind to the fact that I no longer can Someone help me to climb this old hill Cause all of a sudden I'm so bloody frail I don't like the change but I know that I must carry on I see a mirror at the end of a hall Who is this person I just can't recall I don't like what I see but there's no way To change Father Time Then I see the face of a very old friend He tells me that he can no longer pretend That he's not the same man And he's sad that he's run out of time Someone tell me what's going on I'm so damned confused I used to be strong But now I seem blind to the fact that I no longer can Someone help me to climb this old hill Cause all of a sudden I'm so bloody frail I don't like the change but I know that I must carry on If I could be anything I'd be a young man One more time Just to remember what I've left behind If I could be anywhere I'd be right there by your side And that's where I'd stay till the end of all time Tell me what's going on I'm so damned confused I used to be strong But now I seem blind to the fact that I no longer can Someone help me to climb this old hill Cause all of a sudden I'm so bloody frail I don't like the change but I know that I must carry on Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh Must carry on Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh Must carry on Aah aah aah aah aah aah aah Must carry on Aah aah aah aah aah aah aah Must carry on....fade © 2019 James Richard Flewelling

Dreams Sitting in the dark before the dawn Doing my best to recreate the dream Since a memory is all that I have left I struggle and you exit from the scene Guided by...the uncertainty That life is real or just another dream It makes me want to not wonder anymore Cause why is all I've thought since you've been gone The world is made of things that I could never break Yet it crumbles at my feet when things go wrong And then a waking moment tells me that it is too real Intensified by being all alone Waking every morning with you by my side I still feel your breath against my cheek It makes me want to stay right there and hold you tight And we would always be Instrumental breaks Sitting in the darkness feeling wrong Vivid dreams that disappear at dawn There you were in all your splendor in my mind But I could not recall the dream in time Guided by the uncertainty That life is real or is it just another dream It makes me want to not wonder anymore Cause why just has me going round and round Waking every morning with you by my side I still feel your breath against my cheek It makes me want to stay right there and hold you tight And we would always be Waking every morning with you by my side I still feel your breath against my cheek It makes me want to stay right there and hold you tight And we would always be © 2016 James Richard Flewelling

No One Knows I used to dream Of how I would change the world I was a young king I would win every time I met every challenge With the fury of ten good men But as time played with my mind I realized that this is just life Now you know And I know No one knows about tomorrow You know and I know No one knows No one really knows As time gathers speed I no longer try so hard Cause now I can see That no one wins every time It's too much to challenge It's larger than all mankind It seems there's no hope for the hopeless Seems there's no way to change Cause you know And I know No one knows about tomorrow You know and I know No one knows No one really knows I spent so long wondering why Why the world makes it so hard to try Thought somehow that I had it made But now I know that tomorrow will always change You know And I know No one knows about tomorrow You know and I know No one knows no one knows You know And I know No one knows about tomorrow You know and I know No one knows No one really knows. No one knows No one knows…. © 2010 James Richard Flewelling

Eilee I've been across the land wandered all the streets I was at a crossroad in the middle of the sea I didn't know which way to turn lost as I could be Going all the wrong ways but then you came to me You opened up a new door every single day Helped me through my troubled life kept me running straight Things I never thought of you would teach me how And if I couldn't learn the way you always helped me out Eilee you took me by the hand And I became a whole new man Eilee you opened up my eyes You helped me see the light I fell into the well of love deeper every day And I knew there was no way out I was here to stay We settled for the long haul ready right away Things would always work out forever was our play Time did pass and we were free we took it all in stride We went through our life together taking every ride Though there were times of good and bad we always made it through No matter what we came across we would never lose Eilee you took me by the hand And I became a whole new man Eilee you opened up my eyes You helped me see the light You have me dancing dancing like never before And now I'm laughing cause you just made me laugh some more You keep me flying higher than I've ever known Right now it seems like I have never been alone We sailed across the sea flew across the sky Then something came along and we had to say goodbye But we will join it love again I just won't be denied Cause I still feel your heartbeat it's part of my whole life I won't forget the times we had you kept my life alive You were everything to me your presence made me fly The sadness that is in my heart will never go away I will always love you and we will meet again someday Eilee you took me by the hand And I became a whole new man Eilee you opened up my eyes You helped me see the light Eilee you took me by the hand And I became a whole new man Eilee you opened up my eyes You helped me see the light Eilee you took me by the hand And I became a whole new man Eilee you opened up my eyes You helped me see the light © 2016 James Richard Flewelling

Time Can't Change I used to think that my world was forever Nothing would change We would go on till the end of all time And when it was good there could be nothing better Now nothing remains Nothing remains now and I was so blind So now I wash off the pain by drinking all day Pretend that life's just a game and living is pay To keep from going insane I always replay The past that we once had Time can't change Time has a way to remember what's better Like nothing else can Given enough it can soften the blow It didn't allow us to grow old together Now I understand I understand that it has full control So now I wash off the pain by drinking all day Pretend that life's just a game and living is pay To keep from going insane I always replay The past that we once had Time can't change It's so hard to go on living When someone you love will never return But time has a way of forgiving Reducing the pain your thoughts start to change Yet they remain..... I have been running and hiding but now I'm slowing down But I've kept the memories of you and of me Now I'm taking the pain I'm trying to put it away I'm playing life's game trying to make it pay I'm still a little insane but I'll always replay The past I remember we had Now I'm taking the pain I'm trying to put it away I'm playing life's game trying to make it pay I'm still a little insane but I'll always replay The past I remember we had Time can't change nooooo Time can't change nooooo Time can't change © 2019 James Richard Flewelling

Shadows From the corner of my eye I see Something move in the chair you sat A brief moment of joy comes to me But it's just the shadow of your old cat In the middle of a thought I hear Your voice say to me that the pain won't last But everyday it becomes more clear That life's just a shadow of all that's past and gone As the clouds move across the sky Drifting back to when we first met We said our love could never die But now a shadow of love is all that's left And everyday as it turns to night My heart will break all over again Taken that way no time to fight Now I stay in the shadows just to hide my pain In the middle of a long dark night I still hear your voice And as I go through a long hard day It seems I have no choice To get on with my life again They say it's what I need But the shadows remain They're never going to let me be I see the shadow that the dawn creates Growing dark as the night gives way And as I contemplate my own harsh fate The shadows return for another day They always change as the light moves around I see the shapes of you and me And though they move without a sound When I become a shadow that's the day that I'll be free In the middle of a long dark night I still hear your voice And as I go through a long hard day It seems I have no choice To get on with my life again They say it's what I need But the shadows remain They're never going to let me be From the corner of my eye I see Something move in the chair you sat A brief moment of joy comes to me But it's just a shadow and I'm left flat © 2019 James Richard Flewelling

Tell Me Why A mountain before me One that I will never climb It's now there to haunt me The peak was for you and I Now I have my memories But I have been so unsure Cause each day my life brings A sadness that can't be cured Tell me why....Tell me why Tell me why it had to be you Tell me why....Tell me why Tell me why you had to be the one One day there's a plateau Leads me to a peaceful past And I think of the good times But suddenly it's downhill fast Then I'm on to a new trail Takes me to the love we shared Life takes a stumble Then you're gone and I am so scared Tell me why....Tell me why Tell me why it had to be you Tell me why....Tell me why Tell me why you had to be the one Together we'd reach a new peak We'd make the top everytime So much love we couldn't be beat Nothing could stop our great climb We spent our years close to the sky Higher than each time before But suddenly the ledge gives away And my life is forever torn A valley before me One that I may never cross The fall has destroyed me It's left me confused and lost Tell me why....Tell me why Tell me why it had to be you Tell me why....Tell me why Tell me why you had to be the one Tell me why....Tell me why Tell me why it had to be you Tell me why....Tell me why Tell me why you had to be the one Tell me why..tell me why Tell me why tell me why Tell me why tell me why tell me why Tell me whyyyy Tell me why tell me why Tell me why tell me why Tell me why tell me why Tell me why tell me why Tell me why tell me why Tell me why tell me whyyyyy Tell my why...........repeat and fade © 2019 James Richard Flewelling

Who Cares Sometimes I feel I'm falling But I'm too damn tired to care Could easily be that I'm just worn out From trying to do my share But no one cares Someday's I feel like fighting I don't think that I would ever win I'd learn all the rules but I'd just be a fool I know I'd take it on the chin And no one cares I've worked so hard and I'm still nowhere Near the end of what I'd call fair And if I try something new Well it's old again before I'm halfway through Sometimes I say revolution But all I get is a stare So you pay the cash or they'll penalize your ass Whether or not it's fair They don't care Sometimes I feel like screaming It's all the damn rules that are made Stand behind this or that line Make sure you walk this way But do we care I've worked so hard and I'm still nowhere Near the end of what I'd call fair And if I try something new Well it's old again before I'm halfway through Repeat chorus 2 more times © 2016 James Richard Flewelling

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